I started an exciting and interesting new job.
My five children are now in three different schools.
I have a newly-minted high school student with his first serious, real crush. I'm dealing with it, with a modicum of success, via red wine.
And I have a mother in decline. I am not dealing so well with that, red wine or no.
If I didn't have the new job and the five children and the one real, new crush, I would focus solely on the mother in decline, and it would be hard enough, and I would be so sad all the time, and I would not know how to handle anything.
As it is, I am adrift, lost, a mess. I cannot be anywhere without needing to be elsewhere.
My beautiful mother. My kind, behind-the-scenes, nothing-but-kindness mother. My full of good words mother.
What can I do?
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